First, for the other guys - I didn't say most girls are lesbians.
Now to you Alexa -
1. Why do I care about what they think of me? Good question. I think it goes to the heart of what I want.
Frankly, I can give myself a hand job. When I see a masseuse (or whatever else I see) obviously I want something more.
Now it probably isn't necessary for me to define what more I want, but the important thing is that knowledge is control. I'm able to get more out of the business relationship if I know how the girl thinks. Given I have some degree of success at this (in spite of all my shortcomings!), I think there is something of value to what I say.
This knowledge is my competitive advantage.
2. Am I self-conscious? Not in the sense you mean. I am self-aware. And I'm self-aware in a way few are (bragging, sure). And I like being self-aware.
3. I've complained once to management about a girl. Given the number of times I've visited an establishment, that means I officially complain very, very rarely.
4. I'm not generalizing in the sense of saying "all think this way". I am generalizing in the sense of saying "many think this way". It's based on my sampling.
5. I don't know what they are always thinking. As I said, when a girl is talking about others you can quickly see they become less guarded. And I said, that is no guarantee.
6. You have a bias, then, against cynical men. All fine and well. I'm not cynical. I'm fact based. Doesn't really matter.
7. My one very bad experience was with a favourite "allstar" girl. I don't name names because, honestly, I have no interest in getting revenge or seeing her fired or hurting her. I'm not interested in playing games. (At least those kind of games).
As for other all stars, generally, my favourites are a small subset of girls who are "all stars". I've learned to take reviews here with a grain of salt.